I Should

I should be helping cook dinner. I should be counting calories. I should be playing board games with the kids. I should be talking to my mother more often. I should be my sister's best friend again. I should connect with my neighbors "Love thy neighbors". I should have more grace for the folk that go to my church- love them anyway. I should speak more on the positive than the negative. I should get up and work out again. I should fix my finances and get out of this hole. I should have the surgery I have been putting off. I should make a hot breakfast for my family on the weekends. I should be a boss that is kind. I should be more patient and repeat myself as many times as it takes. I should share the vision, and help others want to be a part of it. I should love myself enough to follow through on the daily actions of love. I should read more books, and less internet. I should cut the fucking cable off. I should not see my cell phone as an extension of my hand. I should look at my daughter's eyes more often- they look like brown melty m&ms. I should watch the sun set. I should remember the great feeling after a workout. I should remember to sing everyday. I should talk to my friends every week. I should play games more. I should stick to reading juvenile fiction.. it will keep me young at heart. I should walk my neighborhood. I should buy the house that I want so that I can have the big dogs that I want. I should spend more time in nature, that reminds me that I am God's child and he loves me so much. I should behave as if I love Jesus everyday. I should get back up when I fall. I should reconnect and focus forward. I should.....I should....I should.